so... the past two weeks seemed to have pasted in a couple blur. Napoleon, I swear has grown an inch, still undefeated in summer league and school is almost out! Ben and I seem to be sorting out this whole balance of fun, responsibilities and living together. Not to say there haven't been a few rough moments, but I feel like we are both on the same page and want to be there.
School... what a giant CF. I have been careful who I say anything to, as I learned at the beginning of the year you can never really tell who you can trust, but what I can say is WOW and SHIT. It's strange to me that this story has captured everyone's interest. Like there aren't more pressing issues to talk about, although at some point the economy and politics do get tiresome.
Ketcha is going well.. back there for per diem work. We are working a program together today actually- should be fun, grounds and lows and then home to play with the dogs (Morgan is here for the weekend) and then a long run. Must do a long run today because someone came home with ice cream cake last night and that is definitely a weakness of mine!
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
Napoleon
Bright and early Saturday morning ben left for his frisbee tournament in mass. I was charged with picking up a spastic bundle of puppy on my own. I think I should have taken the moment and realized what I was setting myself up for~ a bunch of time with a puppy and no sign of ben. i am trying to be understanding and patient. i am trying to remember that the first time i got a dog i was so young and my parents really did all the "taking care of"... I am trying to not get upset that my life has been put on hold while his continues as if nothing has changed. clearly adding a puppy to the mix complicates things and sacrifices need to be made and it will take time to adjust to these such sacrifices, but don't want to be the only one home, the only one not getting in the run i wanted to or taking an extremely quick shower as to not leave the dog alone too long.
Napoleon is cute though... he tries to run and tumbles over doing somersaults and sideways falls. he attempts to climb onto things, but his little legs just aren't quite long enough for that yet. he has no fear of other dogs and doesn't realize that he is SO much smaller than all the dogs he has met. he loves to give kisses, but always seems to sneak in a quick bite or two on your ear or any other body part that will holding still while he is close. he jumps onto all his new discoveries with a curiosity that makes me laugh out loud. he is certainly entertaining. and i adore him.
ben and i are good... not that we don't have our moments of getting on each other's nerves, but we are sorting these things out. i have come to a realization that no matter how many times I try to explain why something makes me uncomfortable or upsets me, if he doesn't agree with he is never going to see my side. i find myself selecting my words carefully so when we do talk about an issue we can stay on task and not get side tracked and end up apologizing for something that I really don't need to apologize for. i think he has caught onto the witch craft and trickory of turning the table. i wouldn't change him for the world. he challenges me, and at times i think the easy road would well, be easier, i don't think in the end i could truly love someone that didn't make me think about my actions and words. he has a soft side that not many get to see and i adore him even more when he shows that side to me. i hold those moments close to my heart.
summer is almost here and summer league has started... i am not good at this game and it speaks to every insecurity that i have, but i keep trying. and i guess no one can ask more of me than that. it's almost time to get serious about training for the maine marathon. my goal- qualify for boston. that means a lot of hard work and sacrifices, but in the end completely worth it.
keep your fingers crossed... game tomorrow. 6:30 at Waynewright field if you are interested.
Napoleon is cute though... he tries to run and tumbles over doing somersaults and sideways falls. he attempts to climb onto things, but his little legs just aren't quite long enough for that yet. he has no fear of other dogs and doesn't realize that he is SO much smaller than all the dogs he has met. he loves to give kisses, but always seems to sneak in a quick bite or two on your ear or any other body part that will holding still while he is close. he jumps onto all his new discoveries with a curiosity that makes me laugh out loud. he is certainly entertaining. and i adore him.
ben and i are good... not that we don't have our moments of getting on each other's nerves, but we are sorting these things out. i have come to a realization that no matter how many times I try to explain why something makes me uncomfortable or upsets me, if he doesn't agree with he is never going to see my side. i find myself selecting my words carefully so when we do talk about an issue we can stay on task and not get side tracked and end up apologizing for something that I really don't need to apologize for. i think he has caught onto the witch craft and trickory of turning the table. i wouldn't change him for the world. he challenges me, and at times i think the easy road would well, be easier, i don't think in the end i could truly love someone that didn't make me think about my actions and words. he has a soft side that not many get to see and i adore him even more when he shows that side to me. i hold those moments close to my heart.
summer is almost here and summer league has started... i am not good at this game and it speaks to every insecurity that i have, but i keep trying. and i guess no one can ask more of me than that. it's almost time to get serious about training for the maine marathon. my goal- qualify for boston. that means a lot of hard work and sacrifices, but in the end completely worth it.
keep your fingers crossed... game tomorrow. 6:30 at Waynewright field if you are interested.
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