you see the smile that is on my mouth

I can hardly believe that it is almost august... I feel like i haven't had a moment of down time this summer. And although that is nice in moments, it certainly has made the time pass far too quickly.

Not to be cliche but life is good. Napoleon might be the top performer in obedience class, pizza villa is undefeated, no issues at ranger camp, long runs are back and being completed and Ben and i are clicking.

i am hoping that eventually the sun will come out and I will be able to have some sort of tan and spend some time actually swimming this summer, but at this point I think i would just take a day or two that I didn't wear jeans and a sweatshirt. i think that is fairly reasonable.

my bump in the road continues to be determining when I have expectations that are too high in regards to ex etiquette and when I am being asked to just except what happens without question or concern. call it women's intuition or gut instinct or paranoia, it doesn't matter... what i know is that at a gut level the situation makes me cringe. and i have to trust that feeling... men base decisions on facts and statistics, women on feelings (i know I am generalizing). no good will come of interactions that involve a particular ex. it has nothing to do with trusting him or believing in him or us... those aren't the issue. i issue arises when boundaries are crossed by the person outside our relationship.

No running today... what's a girl to do? ANYTHING she wants!

So... ben turned in his key today and he has moved completely out of his apartment. Ben, Napoleon and I officially are all living on bridge street and i am surprisingly calm about it. things between us are going really well and we have had very few glitches since the move.

running is a different story. finding time since camp started and napoleon got here is VERY hard. I seem to be cutting my runs short and not really putting full effort into it... this is going to cause a huge problem in the fall. i need to get focused again so i am ready for the marathon. this one is in portland, which you would think would mean some supporters out there... and maybe if i can get my act together a qualifying time for boston. i ran 10 on friday and am planning on running 15 tomorrow.

summer league is going well... undefeated season so far. i am not sure my frisbee skills are improving, but i feel less awkward when i am on the field, so i guess that's a step in the right direction. napoleon is great at the games we have taken him to. he just sits there and chills until we are ready to leave- doesn't bark or whine... and everyone loves him.

t-minus 2 weeks until the birthday. how pumped am i?