enough

I have had enough... I have had enough of the bullshit that is a part of my life and I am tired of fighting with Ben about it. I have had enough of caring or wanting to protect the relationship that matters so much to me and appears to matter so little to him. i know he cares about me, but when is it going to change? when will he see that his "friendship" with her is weighing us down? When will i not be expected to always be the bigger person in EVERY situation?

I wish he understood why it bothers me... I wish he understood why I care... I wish he understood why he is the only person that thinks his actions are alright.