i will survive

ok... Saturday night and i am home- ALONE. this stinks! I guess I could have made plans, but it's been so long since I needed to, that I just didn't.

So, tournament update: Jess didn't end up going. So all that stress and anxiety for nothing. I am hoping though that maybe when Ben gets back he will be ready to figure out some boundaries and she won't be an issue any longer.

today... hmm... i was up way early and shopped with Jen. I am basically not sure what i would do without her some days. she kept me busy all morning and let me vent when i needed to and let me know i wasn't crazy. sometimes i think that i am so sucked into ben's world that i forget my opinion is just as important and valid as his is. she keeps me grounded.

definitely got some cute stuff today- nothing for ben's birthday and no cleats for me, but still had a really great time. i need to get out of the house tomorrow too... meeting woman for breakfast (maybe she take me grocery shopping too!) and then who knows. maybe a movie by myself. i am pretty big fan of that!! a chick flick and not having to share armrests... does it get better than that?

anyway- i am hoping he calls before he goes to bed- i can't seem to dial up his number. what is wrong with me?